I basically had to change everything in my life because I never really drank water or ate vegetables or fruits. The thought of healthy foods just didn't interest me, I would say I didn't like certain things but never even tried them. I've joined a couple of gyms and purchased workout stuff throughout the years but never went consistenly. Eventually I thought losing weight was an impossible task and I was meant to be overweight.
I've always loved myself, had great friends and family and been pretty confident but I still wasn't 100% happy with my body. I always wanted to be smaller but it was just to hard for me. I see now that I just was ready mentally. I never actually committed to a lifestyle change, I would just "diet". There were times I would lose weight but then quit and gain it back eventually. This time I committed to a lifestyle change, made small changes and was excited to document my journey on Instagram.
October 25th 2014, my Father's kidneys failed and he was diagnose with lung & liver cancer and that brought on a lot of stress cravings. Late night Checkers, pizza or Popeyes; I 'm on a lifestyle change not a diet, so yes its okay for me to eat those things, time to time but when you eat something when you know your not even that hungry that's just binge eating.
I continued to workout but eating wise and drinking wise I wasn't doing what I needed to do. If this was the past I would have quit my "DIET" but this time around, it wasn't a diet it was my new lifestyle. I told myself only you have the power to control how your story goes. You can either let this break you or motivate you to work even harder.
My Father loves me, I am is little girl but he's been talking about my weight since I was a kid. I've heard for years how I need to lose some weight. So instead of using food as a comfort tool, instead of using his sickness as an excuse not to workout or eat whatever I wanted, I told myself you fight to reach your goal. You make sure you lose that 100 pounds for him to see!!!! I was over there the other day and he kept calling me skinny lol, I'm far from skinny but so happy thats what he sees now.
I said before my one regret was that I took so long to start my journey, now I'm just happy that I did decide to start my journey last year. My dad is home now (kidneys working again :) no one knows what the future will bring. You just have to cherish the time we all have together and stay positive.
I will have thanksgiving dinner with my Dad :), I will spend Christmas with my Dad! I will live the life I have imagined. #SPEAKITTOEXISTENCE
Before and Now Picture 84 Pounds Lost (Link to my IG)
This year I did the one thing I spent my whole life thinking was IMPOSSIBLE and that makes me feel I can DO ANYTHING I PUT MY MIND TO! I don't know what the future will bring but I really do believe good things will come :)
